abode of music..

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa>

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 16:56:30 GMT

.wa.. finally going to update my lj le.. XD after so long! Oo

anyway.. thispost is actually to my dearest darling sweetie jane!! XD for being so patient and understanding with regards to my absence by her side during the past 2 to 3 weeks.. T.T too much preparation for competitions le.. >< and also to thank her for being so concerned abt my A's as well.. =3 i'll make up for lost time k? from tmr(or next tues on).. devoted a WHOLE LOT more time to you!! can~can~? hugs!! so sorry dear.. for such a busy month.. thank you for ALL THE CARE and CONCERN you have shown me for all this time!! MUACKS!! LOVE YA!!! LOADS LOADS!!! =3 >///<

finally.. its time..

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 14:25:45 GMT

hahaz.. this might be one of the rare occassions i even type out what happened.. but yeah.. will be blogging close to zero percent from now one. (maybe can blog from another comp) but yeah.. once i've spoken to my CO and everything settled, will be moving into camp le.. my home til i ORD.. =praying that i'll be able to stay..= still.. pending lawsuits, stress.. suicide thoughts.. hahaz.. although not very strong.. cause i want to stay with you de wor dearest!! =3

reporting in le.. >

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 22:58:08 GMT

>< time for me to go back into the life of a "soldier" le.. haiz.. sianded.. i miss dearest le la!!!! >< why her comp down.. haiz.. her school work how? aiyo.. save up get her a comp ba!! =3 dun like army.. dun like army.. going to request for transfer when i go in.. XD join the band... join the band...

posting.. >

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 12:56:31 GMT

hahaz!! firstly.. just want to say that i miss dearest!!! =3 a lot wor!! oh oh!! looking through online.. i saw a few stuff which i wanted.. but i broke le.. neh mind.. XD posting......................... haiz...

Comd SAF BMTC wishes you all the best in your future posting.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1. You are posted to HQ CAB.
2. Your vocation is REGIMENTAL POLICEMAN.
3. Your are to report to: Changi Air Base (West). Reporting Point at Pass Office.
Reporting Date/Time: 26/12/2007 at 0900 hrs.
Person to report to: Hd PD / PD Clerk
Contact Number: 65864113/4101
You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4. Special Instruction:

No camera handphones/ MP3 players/ PSP/ contraband items allowed. Report in Smart No. 4 uniform. You are required to bring along your duffle bag/field pack complete with the SAF issued items given during BMT and 3 x Passport Size Photographs.

omg.. RP.. lolz!! hope i do get to go home.. XD miss lao po de wor!!! oh oh! the nice thing about the new camp.. 2 very nice looking numbers.. 29 and 2! =3 lao po try linking 29 to you ba? hahaz..

strange.... very strange..

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 03:49:45 GMT

didn't really sleep well at all these few days.. dreamt of a lot of weird stuff.. looks like my mind functions so weirdly that if it were to work when i'm awake.. my memory storage would be so good sia! XD just dreamt of looking through stuff online.. and remembering word for word.. (shocking right? XD i also don't believe sia..)

reading one post makes me tear so much again. hahaz.. really have to thank you dearest! so so much! =hugs= for being there for me.. i love you dear.. so so so much! =3

is it really...?

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 15:33:16 GMT

is blackmailing so fun to do? seems like i get blackmailed so darn often back home. i really want to leave. not to camp la! >< but yep.. i really really need to settle everything and leave this pathetic excuse of a home. i'm very sick and tired of it. i know i'll be pulling people down if i fail.. why the hell do you think i wake up at the wee hours just to study? oh wait.. you DON'T know that i do that.. not even the sergeants or enciks.. sacrificing my time just for this.. failing all my ippt stations cause i study rather than train.. even my section mates are going against me. its so fun! right?

i'm falling ill le! i think.. missing you dearest! so so so much.. T.T i don't wish to leave your side ever!

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 16:29:38 GMT

=prays hard for dearest's portfolio review later= gambatte dear! i'll always be with you k? hugs!

thankies so so so much for today! dearest was so sweet to chiong finish her stuff last night so she could pei me the whole day! sorry for the irritation given earlier on! T.T haiz.. only could think of a card to give dearest.. >< still thinking though.. at most give her when i book out? watched evan almighty.. although couldn't really laugh.. >< but at least i could be with dearest honey! puri-ed and ate pasta.. twice.. XD then buy mooncakes for honey's family.. ate over at dearest's home.. then a little quiet moment.. sorry for dampening your shoulder! T.T didn't mean to actually.. >< hope you liked that little card.. please take good good card of yourself k?

love you with all my heart. muacks!

its almost time..

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 15:12:41 GMT

hahaz... second last or most probably last post before i go in le.. >< have to let dearest be happy! haiz.. will definitely be missing her so much when inside.. T.T sia la.. already looking forward to 1st book out le wor! XD

haiz.. shall make full use of tomorrow to make honey dear super happy! dear.. you wanted puri right? will go for it! as many as you want also can! and i'll anything you want me to do k? hugs! let tomorrow be your day! >< wishing to split myself into 2 so as to keep you company with a part of me..

please take care when i'm inside k? sms me whenever you need to! rant or anything.. just tell me k? i love you! so so so much! T.T dang.. the song enhancing the feeling to cry right now.. T.T wait for me k? i'll be right by your side again very soon! (sia la.. sound like as if i going jail like that.. XD)

you'll always be on my mind.. always..

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 16:32:01 GMT

hahaz! sorry honey! for not updating online! >< anyway.. i want to be with dearest to go watch movie with her! harry potter.. haha.. which i promised her i would go pei her watch.. only.. she watching it with her friends when i've got owrk.. so sorry honey! that i can't pei you watch! >< i really can't take off also cause its too last min le.. ><

went cosfest late.. so sorry i couldn't go earlier dearest! >< work in the way again.. haiz.. i need to find better job! XD standby a lot of instant noodles! hahaz..

i miss dearest so so much! even though i'll see her tomorrow.. hahaz.. still.. don't want leave her side!!!!!!!! XD forever! will take good good care of her! very good care! hahaz! muacks dearest! love ya so so much!

feeling a bit down.. but confirm can pick myself up de! i want help lao po do stuff so she not so stress.. >< xing tong la!

owwwwwww...... T.T

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 11:22:55 GMT

very long no update le.. so so sorry honey dear! ><
just went for wisdom tooth surgery.. FREAKING PAIN!! hahaz.. the numbness injection didn't really work on my right side.. so was excruciatingly pain lo! T.T haiz.. miss dearest so so much! aiyo.. shan't complain so much.. tmr still can see her! going to leave at 11 or 12 tmr.. hahaz.. love ya loads loads dearest! looking for dir en grey songs.. T.T asked Kie.. but she'll be sending to my email later.. hahaz.. looking for para songs too.. finally passed hard mode for 2 songs.. on the same day.. XD thankies so much for the tip in money go! dearest honey! love ya soooooooooo much! shall go take medication.. the pain is really stuck there.. owww..... and honey? i'm really sorry.. you know what i'm refering too.. hahaz! XD

finally online!!!! XD

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 20:09:05 GMT

T.T my dearest is sick AND having a terrible back-ache! T.T if can.. anyone.. higher or lower being.. make her torture mine instead!!! please? don't want to see her in pain! T.T rather her than me..

so darned relieved i'm back online sia! waited dunno how long just for the CPU to come back.. lolz. simon confirm happy sia.. can ROSE le.. hahaz.. yay! at least can talk to dearest online too since school will take up most of her time now.. ;.; anyway.. i still want to do what i say i would do every morning ah dearest! = > looked all over for jam jam jam.. found it and downloading it now.. hahaz..

sia la.. mind always wandering to my dearest these days.. too attached to her le! >///<
not like i don't want to.. hahaz! love ya loads! don't ask why this update is out at this unearthly hour hor! =)

oh and abt the survey you took.. hahaz.. i did mention that being with ya forever in marriage is a current goal of mine right dear? => and what i promised you a few weeks ago on the train stands forever hor.. will not break that promise.. wait for me til then ya? love ya loads!

after so long..

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 17:14:40 GMT

finally blogging.. sorry dearest! >< still using mother's comp thoh.. miss my own comp.. the past week was terrible! >< dearest got so many things happening to her! pp xing tong wor! T.T really hoped that friday cheered her up from the negatives that happened? love ya dear!

went to the night safari with dearest and scha.. but before that.. met up with dearest then went to toa payoh park? the one near central.. super nice can? rarely see those types of places in singapore can? then went to eat at swensens.. shan't elaborate.. shivers sia! XD then met up with scha to go night safari le.. apparently HC got dates mixed up.,. AGAIN! lolz.. anyway.. my first time there sia.. so noob can? XD took the tram ride.. then watched the creatures of the night show.. the otters very cute!!!!!!!! put in the tin can then take out.. put in then take out! ah!! so cute!! the mongooses too!XD looked like i just showered sia.. hot lo! =hippos= XD then went to eat at macs after cause dearest became hungry le.. took the train back to tamp and sent her home.. really hoped throughout the course of the day i cheered her up! really xing tong to see her facing crap from pp.. >< why couldn't it be me.. sorry if i disappointed you dear! in any way..

ex-meridian

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 00:55:42 GMT

made up my mind le.. its really not a good place for me to be in due to the sheer fact that i'm really being tormented everyday in school? i'm really sorry dearest.. if i disappointed you in any way.. will really work hard from now on! will not be letting you down in any way. i swear! remember me saying that i'm determined not to be like someone? i really mean it!

can't belive i just broke down. nor can i believe that HC would have done what he did yesterday. its like.. the pressure from him. to continue? is uncalled for. honestly. forget it. shall try to talk to him again.

take care of yourself dearest! you got sore throat le, still got aching/hurting shoulders.. along with the scalding from corn soup.. >< ren jia xing tong de wor!

thinking very very deeply..

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 17:17:20 GMT

really really feel confused now.. should i or should i not leave? i really don't know! like.. when i make up my mind.. other things come and mess it up again! i really don't know.. i do know that its pointless to take the A's when your contrasting subject is like.. what you cannot do then everywhere you go needs that contrasting to have a good pass.. like.. which i really can't do? i really really want to enter music.. but its not stable.. although i'm willing to put in the effort.. haiz.. nvm.. last few moments before bed.. will make up my mind then.. there's only one thing pulling me back... Ms Sia.. i dunno what to do.. say.. or explain anything to her about my decision.. she's the one i really feel guilty to if i make a wrong decision.. second to my dearest.. haiz.. think.. think.. think..

P.S.: i'll smile more dearest! XD i really will! not like i enjoy being sad.. hahaz!

oww!

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 17:56:38 GMT

hahaz..showering hurts! lol... cause heel got cut.. then touch water.. >.<

thank you so SO SO much dearest! for friday! really! touched me so can! everything you've done.. thank you! hugs! i'm sorry for me being so down these few days.. i'll be fine de! really! =) thanks for being there! the whole day was turned into such a nice day! but i'm really sorry i got you home very late.. >< really sorry for not being competent enough.. T.T

today nothing much.. sent dearest to work.. go dg.. and apparently someone like doesn't like me until must vs me 9 times on marvel vs capcom 2? then ended up at emerald to st ankage sauce.. and then to work! apparently that guy again caused probs at work today.. zzz... must gan him more.. so no trouble to pp le.. or not much trouble to pp.. then HC asked dearest to stay longer.. =xing tong= she already sleepy le still work for so long.. ><

i'm really sorry for always being so reluctant to leave.. i'm not willing to can? i never did.. but like you said.. no choice.. haiz..

missing you.. =)

i'm sorry>

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 00:13:29 GMT

sorry dearest! for everything i've done to make you worry and xing tong! ='( i swear not to do this again! sorry for spoiling your birthday mood! >< and.. i'll take care! don't want to lose you remember? i really mean it when i say that! thank you SO MUCH for being there for me! i promise/swear/sign contract(XD) that i'll not make you worry like this morning! really! no more such instances! believe me please? ='(

i love you dearest! with all i have! =) only you..

happy birthday dearest!! =]

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 01:43:03 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! =hugs= hahaz.. XD hope you have a really fine day at work love! will NOT spoil your special day by revealing it to others dear. =] but then again.. every day IS your special day right? =p

missing you so so much.. XD really hope your headache from yesterday is okie dearest! must take care wor.. pp xing tong de.. oh ya! your prezzie.. i'm sorry that it will be quite late before you recieve it.. i'm sorry! >.<

yesterday work was okie okie lo.. bloody hell.. ran around like nothing la can.. still kena scolded.. customers keep changing their drinks even after confirmation.. had to use m card dunno how many times la.. sianded.. couldn't really help take more customers than dear.. >.< stressed her out so much can.. =heart pain= the most i could do was to send her home.. on a happier note.. was ble to wish her a happy birthday in person right on the dot at 12am! XD have to go call dearest up le..

i love you! =] many happy returns for today dearest!

ZzZzZzZ.......

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 01:47:23 GMT

back to posting le! zzz... sleepy sia.. anyhow.. yes dearest! i'm really really glad you accepted me! i'll be there for you forever! =D can right?

uncle peter last day le.. haiz.. another crew leaving.. seem to see that very VERY often at rc.. >< anyway.. uncle peter is really a very nice to have around wor! must go pp find him one day! XD for free cups of water.. lolz..

chinese new year taxing sia! work long hours everyday.. but cannot compare to dearest's normal working hours. >< take care ya darling? and try not to injure yourself so much? pp will really xing tong de wor.. ='(

another thing.. 1 more day le.. wonder if what i do will make someone happy.. hahaz..
=prays hard= love you loads too dear! hugs!

another day...

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 16:17:01 GMT

shall not put what i intended to before i tot of how to start off this post! XD

today was another day at work lo.. only with the addition of another manager.. lolz.. spent like a very long time in the kitchen alone can? cause da jie preparing vegetables at the back.. then all the present pp out in the frontline doing cashier and cs.. today was a relatively short day! as compared to what i was previously scheduled to do.. hahaz! so.. with the remaining hours of the day, i went out with dearest! HC like refused to let me go can? and the customers were like so annoying la! cannot even make up your mind about what to order and they dun accept help from you de.. lolz! but still.. to last through all that just to see Naz-chan was worth it! anything is worth it just to be with her.. hahaz! sorry for making you wait so long dear! HC really didn;t allow me to leave.. ='( walked around suntec talking about her day and mine.. then sent her home le..

take care of yourself too okie darling? i also very xing tong de leh if any injury happens to you or if and old injury hurts again.. will try my best to prevent any injury from happening if i can! =)

the surprise i got just now was so very the very nice! =)

a blasting from me..

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 17:44:23 GMT

to that loser that jus joined us.. even if you can't see this.. if you really think that you can have that bloody attitude towards anyone in life.. think again.. you CAN't survive on it! my dear doesn't have to recieve that type of attitude from you. if only there'll be a person to replace me in kitchen.. you'll see hell.. i dun joke especially when it comes to my dearest okie? you do this type of crap when she bothers to even teach you? come on.. basic courtesy? and dun be so niao la can? why am i doing such a bo liao thing like this? dunno... jus tot i should voice out my opinions on this matter.. =standing by my dearest= and dun you ever make a move towards her!

another day at work..

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 17:34:07 GMT

first of all.. sorry dear! really fell back to sleep after calling you.. >< in the end make us both late.. then kena scolding.. sorry! =bows really low=

today was sianded.. very very very the sian after dearest left can? besides the point that she not around.. really got no pp can! then yayan go slack like dunno wad.. but had to thank him for letting me run the kitchen by myself! XD more prac.. break was fun! suddenly had the feeling that auntie mary would sabo me and let me go break when Naz-chan dear is breaking.. hahaz... but still.. didn't mind lo! then halfway thru uncle peter came in! that was so farni la can! talked about so many funny things! anyhow.. got a act pro guy who joined the crew.. hmm.. supposed to train him multi station.. good luck to him when it comes to me teaching him ba.. hehz.. give him hell... hahaz! controller fryer he come to me confirm die de wor! my speed not trained up for no reason de! hahaz! setter worse.. make sure he clean up! XD if he makes a mess.. anyway.. i miss you.. you know who you are dear.. =) wanted to see my ranting right? done le.. for today.. oh ya! pizzza.. lolz! was so big la can! but why no steamboat.. XD nvm ba.. later get MOS ang pow! XD

P.S. i'll take good care of myself de darling! thank you for being concerned about me! hugs! i love you!

friday happenings!

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 17:39:24 GMT

zzz.. first if all.. if uncle peter sees this.. i'll jus have 1 thing to say.. today not belated valentine's can? didn't need a belated one in the 1st place! XD

today was quite lame.. celebration in school.. zhi zong everything for every single performance.. when he's jus beside me can? lolz.. but the highlight was not celebration in school.. more of.. the time i spent with my dearest! hahaz.. went to help clear her stuff for CNY! so many things lo! hahaz! helped her clear stuff and sort thru what was needed to be kept and not. a lot of cloth lo! took home quite a bit.. forgot about the yuna international cloth which dear Naz-chan passed to me.. (left it there after collecting it jus now) nvm ba.. hahaz! at least if she can think of anything for its use then better! (was trying to plan a surprise with it thoh.. XD)

helped level rinoa by 4 levels.. lolz.. skill still not back yet lo.. playing ff viii again! so nice can! gg to show that my rinoa really rapes any opponent can? chiong!!!!! watch diru vids for the 1st time in my life! graphic.. hahaz.. yeah.. >< but can tahan lehz..

for the first time in my life, i ate instant noodles microwaved.. hahaz!

planned to go watch movie de.. but then seemed quite rushed so walked around MARINA with dearest Naz-chan! then went to suntec to eat.. carrot cake! then went back to mos.. zzzz... 2 out of 3 managers around.. lolz! oh ya! HC mssage me asking me to report at 12 when like.. ya.. already planned too.. XD anyway.. yep.. lolz!

missing my dear Jane(Naz-chan) too bad i can't fly over to give her a hug right now.. ='(

jus a side note..

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 05:30:00 GMT

to that special someone...

I'M NOT BI LA!!!!!!! xD

jus to clarify..

solid proof needed?

in love with you?

never seen guys as attractive at all?

never hugged any guy out of love! =shivers=

still..

i love you! =D

to my dearest.. =)

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 05:22:03 GMT

thank you so much for writing that for me! i may not be able to do the exact same thing offhand.. but still.. here's my true feelings when i read it.. =) hope can understand la.. XD

tears came to my eyes when reading
i never knew the correct words to use
but what i do know is that no matter what
i'll wait for you,
even if it takes all eternity

you needn't be alone
i wouldn't want you to
i'll always want to be here for you
being your listening ear
letting you use my shoulder
trying my best to cheer and comfort you

you've never given me any trouoble
nor do i think that i am in trouble cause of you
i've never once not cared nor able to put down the fact
that i'd rather be there with you,
listening, comforting,
and letting you cry in my arms

it doesn't just pain me seeing you like this
at these times, i'd wish for noting else than
to be able to take your place in suffering
and your happiness to come back

although you may want to face things alone at times
i just want you to know that you will never be alone
and i'll always be available for you to come to
even if you want me to get down by your side
i wouldn't say no, even in the most unconvenient of hours
just to let you know i'm there for you,
always..

i'll be waiting for that day,
when the smiley you returns
til then.. i'm sticking by you
no matter what
supporting you, caring for you
listening to you, crying or not
you said you hoped i wouldn't mind
you didn't need to
i would listen to your every single word
that you wanted to convey to me
like its the only things i want to hear

i trust that you'll be fine
i know that you'll be
and i'll be by your side through everything
making sure that i'll be there for you no matter what
so that i can live up to what i've said so far,
to you

i love you

=)

the meme i wanted to do to show Naz..=)

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 16:14:40 GMT

1. Who are you?
>> someone wanting to always be there for you...
2. Are we friends?
>> we are.. only the closeness level matters...
3. When and how did we meet?
>> at rc.. in mos.. on your 1st day of work! XD
4. Do you have a crush on me?
>> HAD.. currently IN LOVE with you!
5. Would you kiss me?
>> i would! if you'd let me.. (like for instance.. jus now..)
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
>>
7. Describe me in one word.
>>everything
8. What was your first impression?
>>a very very nice person
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
>> no.. YOU'RE BETTER THAN BEFORE!!
10. What reminds you of me?
>>my mind.. your messages.. YOU!
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
>>everything i can!
12. How well do you know me?
>> quite well.. although i wan to know you totally? =)
13. When's the last time you saw me?
>> half hour ago?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
>> i told you the one thing i've kept in mind for very long le.. =)
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
>> aren't i doing it now? =)